The wrong guy

OK so there's this guy... that i so fucking love and that drives me crazy, and makes my heart beat a thousand times faster than usual. But in the end i don't know what to do because our love is totally impossible... we study in the same school but in different grades; he is 3 years older that me and on top of that he has a girlfriend, i have a boyfriend too. Also we both have the same problem(that's what brought us together in the first place) we are... how do i say it....not sexually satisfied? For us that is a BIG deal because how can you have a healthy relationship without total sexual satisfaction? (sex doesn't have to be included)Its just NOT normal, not one way nor the other, there has to be a balance and when there's no balance;THIS happens:Two teenagers looking for sexual satisfaction with no feelings attached...even though there really good friends. So you can call this a DEEP frienship.

Anyway today we decided that we were kinda desperate and that scince we were really good friends...and there was so much trust.. no body was going to find out..we decided to well kiss and touch each other blah blah blah and all that crap. but seriously Im scared to death because i don't things to get weird between us or worse actually start to like LIKE each other(TOTAL CATASTROPHE!).Apart from the OBVIOUS attraction i might actually fall in love with this guy...FUCK
well I´ll keep you updated on what happens
wish me luck!
love,
Ale